It was thought that the gods blew on creative people, who would then inhale the god's breath and have an idea. This is the premise of "inspiration": inhaling divine breath and ideas.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

The Trunk (page 7)

Cluck… cluck… sounds made from the insides of my trunk in sporadic episodes. It had never bothered me until now. and this was the first instant I began to shudder at the sound. It remainded me of popular fustian. Yes I remember what it contained. The fates of people whom I destroyed not due to my will, but due to my fate. The function of angel of death. How swiftly death had attacked my near and dear ones! And I collected their remains in my trunk, so that on the day of justice I can question God of his misdoings. But now, depredation against God was useless. I wanted to be exculpated, of being an angel of death. A curse to my family. The bearer of death. None in my lineage live to see this day.

Blink blink blink blink

Now it all seemed an imbroglio. The rancor vanished. The wait for death disappeared. I decided to end my itinerant. Everything seemed to be in an equilibrium. I decided to empty the contents of the trunk in to the holy river. The agog of letting off my past was strong. Now I want to live. For myself. Not for my sins, not for my painful past, not for dispensing my functions as angel of death. Not for fruitful or fruitless arguments. Not to confront God. I want to live for myself. I shed the patina of my form to enter into another dimension. In this dimension, time didn't matter. Everything seemed an eternity. As we look deeply within, we understand our perfect balance. There is no fear of the cycle of birth, life and death. For when you stand in the present moment, you are timeless.

10 comments:

  1. The end of chronicle of an immortal man. Death is a humanizing experience. And the boon for the angel of death is choosing his time of death, the method and the place he wants to die. Everything at his disposal!
    I had a great time writing.

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  2. Wow. I liked the way you've said it.

    Poor immortal man. How heavy his trunk must have been.

    When he stood in the present moment, was he also sinless?

    I hope the holy river ended his aberrations?

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  3. To shruthi:

    I think sin is a relative 'term'. If you think you have sinned, then you have. If you think you haven't, then you haven't.

    The new dimension has ended his aberrations.

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  4. >If you think you have sinned, then you have. If you think you haven't, then you haven't.

    Arent we mixing repentance with sin here? if u think you have sinned I guess there is also regret and repentance..

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  5. "There is no fear of the cycle of birth, life and death. For when you stand in the present moment, you are timeless."

    loved this part.

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  6. To crystallized thoughts:

    If you think you have sinned, then you have sinned.
    The immediate next reaction after accepting your sin is repentence. So the first part would be accepting your sin. I dont think I got things mixed. Have you?

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  7. To Jack Frost

    thank you. If you havent noticed,

    As we look deeply within, we understand our perfect balance. There is no fear of the cycle of birth, life and death. For when you stand in the present moment, you are timeless.

    is also my blog description.

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  8. U sre are timelesss..

    nicely said!

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  9. Thank you!! Since u said end I read the whole chronicle again. Page 4 is my fav. I will surely come back and read this again n again. His boon is more like that of Bhishma's :)

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  10. To Rafiki

    Thanks again. I was thinking about the immortality of demigods when I wrote the chronicle. 'Bhishma' had eluded my mind until now. Very good observation I should say.

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